This has been on my mind lately… and I always wonder if I’m at my fullest potential at my prime years.
The future is esp what scares me and the constant thoughts repeating in my list of – I don’t know where I can go from here, how best to organise my time, how to change my mindset, how to become present, how to say no, what my true passions are…
and you know what? I continually love to repeat that list every now and then.
The big question here would be
“Am I doing what I’m supposed to be doing?”
Sharing out in this space will definitely make me vulnerable but I dare say I’m not the only one having these ” uncertainty in life”…. especially transitioning from a teeny bopper to a full fledge adult.
I’m 27 this year, holding the greatest job in the world that allows me to travel with my Husband. We get to travel round the globe, eat food food, get paid well and have absolutely no work to think about when we’re back home. I love the lifestyle but not the job ( srsly; who does) Yet, I don’t know if I’m truly satisfied with where I am, is this the right path for me, is this for the real me.
My road map
I woke up at 5am today, sat on bed and started making a road map out for myself
– turn my thinking into actions instead of standing still doing nothing
– I reasoned with myself that I would be OK as I’ve got support from both my family and Husband
– if I were to do something I didn’t like/didn’t take off, I can change and learn from it.
Looking at this road map calmed my anxiety a little and at the same time, it taught me to stop hoping to look for that magic guide book for life.
My colleague once told me, ” nobody actually knows what they’re doing” haha, that made me smile a little cause I know I’m not alone.
I always have to remind myself that I’ve got the greatest support from my husband and family and all I need is to take a deep breath and just slowly learn to discover myself. This is what life is all about.
Finding a way to move forward
Needless to say, I married the greatest man alive whom gives me nothing but the best he can. No hesitations no regrets. Even though he doesn’t know it, he taught me that – love is when the other person’s happiness is more important than your own. I’m very grateful for him.
He’s been constantly giving me his support in whatever dreams or goals I have. And yes with that, it pushed me harder to be a better me.
” It has been said that change is the only only constant in life; everything else is up in the air. Being uncertain or unsure doesn’t define you as lost; it simply means you’re living”
Though I’m still battling sleepless nights and a mind with daunting questions every now and then, I would like to think that I’m ok. And that I’ll be ok.